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[vervet_monkey]

Ugh. Living with people is tiring. I feel like I can't escape. I am perfectly happy to socialise outside, I've been very good in fact, doing lots of nice social things. And really enjoying myself and having fun and its not a chore becuase i really enjoy it. BUT then I come 'home' and I still live with people. So, if I go get a cup of tea I'm bound to run into someone and have the 'how was ure day?' conservation or 'what have you got today' etc. And they're the same conversations every day with the same people. And if I get into bed at 8.30 to watch a film and then decide i actually want a glass of water i have to walk out in my PJ's. Which oddly enough get s odd looks! And its never quiet because theres always people about. Which shouldbe fine. But I fell like I have to deal with people all day, then I come home and people aren't actually in my room, but they are still about.

I think I am actually having a little panic about finding a house next year, coz we have the first of the housing talks. And its not that I don't know people i could live with, but i don't know them well enough. How do you know after 6 weeks that you could spend a year living with these people? You don't! And I think if you;re living with people as firends, rather than by some random computor desicision, then surelty theres alot more pressure. Now for example there is nothing strange with me sitting in my room. No pressure to do anything as a flat bacause although we do all get on, we all have seperate activities and groups of friends etc. But if you were living with your friends then how can you ever have that break. I mean, i love Fred to bits and used to see her everyday, but after a month of sharing a tent we were getting on each others nerves. Surely if you don't know people as well as we did, and for longer and i know its not exactly the same but....

I'll be fine!!!!

Got my proper horse today! Yay. Rode Louis who was strangyl afriad of the bag next to the arean, which led to being scared of everything else as well!! Daft boy. But it did give me a chance to show my ability to ride a horse calmly and sit a buck and not panic, and she was quite imressed with me. Which was good coz I think she was about ready to murder the rest of the ride. Listen people! Keep trotting or join the novice class! DO NOT SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Despite my post i have actually had a good day. FDone no work thanks to my sudden random work spurt on Monday in which i got lots and lots done. Good lazy day!

Kayla

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Hey missy I haven't forgotten you. Wow I have a lot to reply to, okay I'm starting here and working towards todays :D

Hmm I think first of all you're back to the adjusting to staying in the same place with the same people thing again. Give it time.

Secondly, I don't mean this is a bad way, but you're not the most sociable person ever. Not that that's bad, just that you're the kind of person who needs time on their own and space. Some people like to be around others all the time, some don't. So of course getting used to living with six(?) strangers is going to be hard on you.
Also, sharing a tent is hugely different to sharing a house. You will be able to retreat to your room when you want to, there's more space etc, yes I know you know all this but I'm saying it anyway :). Okay in some ways you will have to do some stuff as a group with whoever you end up sharing with, but it's not going to become mandatory to go out every single night with them, or even every time. You will be fine when it happens, but remember you've got a while until then.

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*hugs* thank you