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 I cannot learn languages. This is what I have decided.

I'm trying to learn Swahili before going to Tanzania. Just a little to give me a starting point. I can't. I can read the book and listen to the CD and do the exercises, but as soon as I put them away, they're gone. Except for the odd word, which gets stuck in my head and won't leave (ninatoka at the moment, meaning I am going to...). I'm trying, really. Lots of short bursts and writing and speaking and listening to it when ever I can, but no. Nothing. Hello, how was your morning, how was your journey and I am going to. That is the extent of my vocabulary. Grrrr it's frustrating. 

Spent this weekend visiting the parents. Built a log store with Dad on Saturday, as well as pulling up lots of beetroot and picking raspberries. (The raspberries all got eaten, but I managed to accidently steal some beetroot). Brother and his girlfriend joined us out to dinner, which means we spent the meal acting like 5 years olds. Me and my brother tend to get excitable when we see each other, I think his girlfriend must think I'm insane, I'm always giggling and talking complete rubbish. Shopping with parents on Sunday. Not that I needed anything but it seems to be the default activity. Although I do now have a pair of jeans without any holes in them (Mum did confiscate my old pair of jeans before I came back home, I definitely missed out on her fashion genes completely).

It was also apparently my birthday. I always thought I was born in December but Mum has decided that in order that she doesn't get sad this Christmas it was my birthday last weekend and will be Christmas when I return. I had cake and presents and everything (Biodegradable soap, hand sanitiser and a waterproof laptop case, they know me so well!). All a bit odd but who's going to say no to cake (chocolate and beetroot, yum) and presents?

No newts to report, as per usual. My normal partner has gone on holiday, so I'm being very nice to people still in Southampton and a surprising number are willing to get up at stupid hours to help me.

There is a spider trying to climb up my wall but he keeps falling off. I thought spiders were supposed to be good at climbing?

Sticking with the wildlife theme, we have a sparrowhawk in our garden. She's visited us a few times now, generally with a frog to eat, perching next to the compost bin. She is very beautiful, I keep trying to photograph her but I left my long lens at my parents so I haven't been able to get anything passable yet. But it does please me to see her out there every so often.

Sherlock is rapidly becoming another obsession. Which is daft, I've only seen them once and there's only three of them. But apparently my head likes it and isn't letting go. I've been reading fanfiction for the first time in about 4 years (I'd forgotten how sad it could be...) and brought my copy of Sir Arthur Conan Doyles books back to Southampton with me. I may have to see if I can aquire a second hand copy of the DVD's at some point soon.
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Been in the new house for 2 weeks now. Feeling settled in, although I don't think it is going to feel like mine as I'm just staying 3 months. Still no internet, which is rather annoying as the small amount of work I do have relies on it (and, well, I like it!), but the guys I'm living with don't seem in much of a rush to sort it, and as I'm not around for long I don't feel like I can just do it. Just means I'm spending a lot of time in the library or various cafes in town. Which I do kind of like, but when you just need to check what time you're working in the morning it's a tad annoying. And with our council workers STILL on strike (or mostly on strike, I'm not entirely sure what's going on) the public libraries are not the most reliable places atm.

Newt work, the whole reason I'm hanging around for three months, is not really going anywhere. As is always the case with field work we are waiting on equipment. Which, when I'm in the middle of no where I can forgive, when I'm in Southampton and said equipment is sheets of wood, not so much. I'd go get them myself except their barely paying us as it is so really no room in budget for buying of wood as well. Have been doing research for the time being though, and we know where the refugia is going and such. Just need the actual refugia and we'll be off. Absolutely have to have them by next Monday though, otherwise we are going to run out of time to run the project before I leave for Tanzania.
 
Have been doing outreach work alongside the lack of newt work, which is good as it pays me. And not too boring either, but will dry up after this week, given that the schools break up.
 
Went riding on Saturday on a ridiculous pony. To start with she is tiny, no more than 12hh (120cm) so really tiny. Which is OK, so am I, but still. But we were jumping, so normally, nice collected canter would be good. Nope, this tiny little thing runs at them flat out, but she can jump. I have no clue how, we were doing 2'6", but I had her owner on the edge telling me just to let her do it. And she did, bless her. Also, and the real reason I was riding her, had a nice bronc session to start the lesson. She's been being ridden by the kids and had learnt a few bad habits when they ask her to work. But again, tiny, so I wasn't going anywhere, just providing entertainment for everyone watching. Ache so much now though, from clamping my legs round her sticking to the saddle. Might have found my project for the summer!
 
Graduating next week. Parents, Grandparents and brother all coming down, which will be good. Off out to dinner the night before, to the Olive Garden, which sounds good although I've never been (bit outside the student budget!). Bit worried about Grandad as he hasn't been well and I know he really won't speak up if he's not feeling well on my graduation. I'm the only Grandchild to attend (my cousin went to Uni but was disappointed with his grade so didn't go) and it's been paid for by my Grandparents (I know, I'm amazingly lucky), so it's a big deal for them. 
 
And quick note on Torchwood. I like the concept, wasn't overly blown away the show, but it was good enough, no real complaints more substantial than there being perhaps a few to many guns.
 
Oh, AND, just booked flights to Tanzania!
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Continuing in the Shakespeare theme of late I took Mum to see Hamlet on Saturday for her birthday. Her birthday was actually in May, but I wanted to take her to a show I know she knew, so we didn't go until now. Also given that my Grandma's funeral actually fell on Mum's birthday it was good to be able to celebrate again and properly.

Spent the day wandering round London on my own with my now fixed camera. Lots of fun and I felt very much the tourist. Visited Big Ben and the Houses of Parliment, Westminster Abbey, Buckingham Palace and St James Park. Got some pretty good photos too that I will share should my laptop stop being stupid and actually let me download them from my camera.

Met Mum outside the Globe and went for a posh dinner at the Swan (the resuarant attached to the Globe) very tasty and dessert was by far the biggest portion, as I think it always should be!

Our seats weren't great, but I knew Mum wouldn't want to stand for the performance and my budget would only stretch to the cheap seats. We were to the left of the stage, slightly angled behind the actors. Not too much of a problem, but it did mean that they were often hidden behind the pillars in the middle of the stage.

The performance itself was very well done, particularly Hamlet and Ophelia. I've never seen Hamlet on stage, only the BBC production on a few Christmases ago. This was different first in that it was in period dress, and that it felt a lot more dramatic. Not over acted, but Hamlet was played much more, I almost want to say loudly? While Tennants speeches felt like he was talking to himself, this was proclaimed for the world to hear. Which works beautifully in the Globe, especially with the audience standing below. It was also surprisingly funny for a tradegy, which I hadn't really realised before.

The Globe always makes Shakespeare feel more accessible (in fact that's exactly what Mum said to me as we were leaving), this production did so more than Macbeth which I saw there last year. Which is particularly surprising as I didn't know the story of Hamlet, while I studied Macbeth and generally consider it to be my favourite of Shakespeares plays. It was big on the physicality of it all, so even if you're not understanding all of the words (which I never do!), you can still understand. In fact we shared a booth with an American family with children who must have been no older than 12, and they seemed to grasp it just fine.
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 Back home in Southampton after a week with the parents. Week was nice but it's always good to be home and back to independence. 

Spent this week training for my job with the City Council, surveying Great Crested Newts on Southampton Common. Unfortunately our training was done by a botanist who seemed to think his book was the most important thing in the world, and therefore at least 4 hours of the 2 days was spent IDing plants using his books. Which is fine, if that's what you need to do, but really not relevant and, umm, zoologist, so anything more complex than 'leaf' or 'stem' is going to mean nothing to me. Very dull 2 days.

Meeting with supervisor next Monday though, so hopefully we will then get going on Tuesday, at least setting out the refugia. As we still need GPS and the refugia however it might take a little longer. Actual surveying has to take place around dawn, so starting at 4.30am this time of year, so my sleep patterns are going to be all screwy for the rest of the summer.
 
In town today looking for another part time job to go along with newts, got to be the most depressing thing, especially as I don't actually want any of the jobs I'm applying for (and there's not that many jobs about anyway!). But grit my teeth and I'm sure I can cope for three months. Plus money would be good, as payment from newts only barely covers rent and food (I have savings so it's not vital, but would rather not be using them!).
 
No internet at home, so have been sat in a cafe for 3 hours, trying to remember everything I need to do online before I go home. Hoping I've remembered it all!
 
Tumblr has also made me all nostalgic for Harry Potter now. Damn all the books being at my parents. I haven't even seen most of the films, but suddenly I want to go and watch them all.

Off to London tomorrow to see Hamlet at the Globe with Mum. Can't wait, Mr Tennant has stuck me on a bit of a Shakespeare kick at the moment!
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 Funeral was yesterday. It was hard, but kind of nice in some ways too.

Grandma wanted us to bury her before the service, so we all drove down to the cemetery first to bury her with Grandad Charles. It's a beautiful church, up on top of a hill and if you look over the wall you actually can't see anything but green. I didn't even know that was possible in England. It was weird being back there, we used to take Grandma to visit Grandad Charles grave quite often when we were little but hadn't been there in about 10 years. And that was incredibly hard, but she was right about doing it that way round, it made it a lot easier when we then drove back to the church.

The service was lovely. The vicar knew her so it was very personal and she was very involved in the village. Very much a celebration of her life, and with the vicar calling out to people to add their little bits in. All the Grandchildren and Great Grandchildren got up and we had to stand awkwardly at the front, which was weird, but quite nice to see us all together. Lots of jokes about the lack of television in their house growing up hence the large amounts of children (Grandma had one sister and Grandad Charles was an only child, but Dad is one of six).
 
Then the wake was outside on the church green. And it was really nice, just tea and cake and some sandwiches. But I think we only really ate the cake. All the little Great Grandchildren were being made to eat their sandwiches first, before eating the butterfly buns (we had to get our memories of Grandma together and I think every single one of us mentioned butterfly buns. And speaking to all my cousins I think the UK may be over run with them at the moment as we've all been making them over the past few weeks) except the younger of the Grandchildren (the ones without children of their own to set examples for) all ate our cakes first, which kind of put an end to that!
 
I had to leave early, which was a shame as I would have liked to be able to stay and talk with my cousins, but I had an exam this morning so had to get back. Was really odd leaving though, as all my family was staying, it felt strange walking round doing to goodbyes by myself. Normally I work out who to say goodbye to by following the parents, it's hard when you only see people once every couple of years to remember who you're supposed to know!

ETA - But arriving home to a package from [livejournal.com profile] stolen_dreams complete with red lollipops was a definite boost :)
 
On the exam front I think they've gone OK but not great. One more to go then freedom!
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My Grandma Evelyn died on Tuesday morning of a brain tumour

My Grandma )
 
 
I'm doing OK. Little bit wobbley, but over all coping. Calling Dad quite often, I worry about him. But we had a long talk about her this evening. He called me at 3am when she died and cried down the phone, which was hard to hear. I've only seen him cry once before and that was at his brothers funeral. He refused to leave her too, when she died, until the funeral directors took her away. Him and my two cousins sat with her for hours. This is after spending the previous 3 days by her bedside. The hardest thing for me is being in Southampton, not there with him.
 
Love you Grandma, miss you x
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 Admittedly Easter holidays would be more exciting if the majority wasn't going to be spent working, but never mind!

Not that I can complain too much, France last weekend and Wales tomorrow :)

France was awesome. It had Jess, of course it was awesome. We did quite a bit this time, constantly talking at a million miles an hour too! Got up late on Friday, having stayed up talking when I arrived on Thursday, and went to meet up with one of her friends in Toulouse. Which I love as a city, so beautiful and old and... French. Which I really need to learn to speak. Jess has clearly got the language completely now, more than she had last time. Although she was fairly fluent last time she still recognised when something was in French and had to kind of, switch gears, to understand. Not so much this time, jumping between languages without noticing. Which is good for her, but does mean she doesn't notice when I'm looking at her blankly for translation when someone asks me something. Oh why did I never learn? Thankfully everyone is lovely and spoke English for me the whole weekend. 

Saw acrobatics on Friday night which was really good, and mostly visual so language wasn't an issue. Then to the pub for a while before back to her room to sit chatting again. Which led to late getting up on Saturday also. Did very little during the day, went for a wander along the canal, which is so beautiful, had a picnic lunch then wandered back to cook dinner. Watched Dr Who over dinner (The Unquiet Dead) and then went to watch The Black Swan with another of her friends. Which is an amazing film (although very triggery, should that be an issue... clearly labelling something as triggery is firmly stuck in my brain...) how it builds up with really very little in the way of story line or speech. And really scary too. Although the sub-titles did ruin it a bit. They were ummm, interesting? The word swan got replaced with pelican a few times and it definitely said the opposite to the screen more than once.
 
Up early on Sunday (despite the again late night) to go to the space museum with more of Jess's friends. Fairly interesting, also saw Hubble 3D and the planetarium. Which were interesting but lots of speech that didn't mean a lot to me! Dinner at a nice little vegetarian restaurant before catching my flight back home :(
 
Was so nice to get to see Jess, I do miss her quite a lot... or more than a lot. Its nice and safe and comforting. Although I did get home to find an e-mail apologising for not being up to talking about 'grown-up things', meaning the idea of me and her. Meaning clearly her head is still in confused space, as as far as I understood we were just continuing along. She knows where my head is, being that taking things further would be nice, but that I don't expect it, and don't at all feel like I have second best in having her as a friend. And that I'm not moping around waiting for her to decide what she wants. If it happens, it happens, if not, I still get a Jess, so all is good. It worries me more that she couldn't talk to me... but she knows where I am should she want to. Have also pointed out that most of our friends have worked something out, so she can talk to them all she likes too.
 
Off to Wales riding tomorrow, which is exciting. Then working until 16th when I go home and too Morocco :). Yay
 
And, assuming reports are right, congratulations to Mr Tennant. 
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Life post!

Still pretty much living at library. Have also somewhat accidentally got into the routine of getting up at 6.30 every morning (went to bed really early one night, so then got up early, was really tired etc....) so am getting to library for 8am every morning! Don't feel particularly stressed by it, although I did wake up this morning with skin that would look more at home on a 14 year old, so maybe I am and just haven't realised it... ah well...

Work is going well though. Am waiting for my supervisor to get back to me on my almost final draft of dissertation, he only gets an outline but it should be quite useful. Am behind on other reading, but not hugely so, and on top of other coursework, so it's good overall.

Have just had SUCV AGM so as of 3 weeks time I will no longer be president. Am quite glad tbh, not that I haven't enjoyed it, but it will be nice not to have to be the one to do all the organising, and I will not miss having to lug 6 litres of water up to uni every sunday, and then washing all the cups up afterwards. Got a mostly good committee. This year hasn't been as good as the last I don't feel, but that might be because all the people I started with haven't really bothered to turn up, hopefully next year will continue to be awesome, because that society really did give me my home at uni.
 
Off on the resi this weekend. Which is stressful to organise but should be fun, I hope. Going to spend tomorrow doing food shopping for it and sorting all the last bits.
 
Then off to see Jessica the weekend afterwards. Yay. Will be nice relaxing weekend where I have to think about nothing. And I'm arriving on the Thursday and she has lectures all day Friday so I plan on sleeping too. 
 
Then the weekend after that is riding trip to Wales! Yay again. Going with one of the girls from Belize and lots of people I don't know but very exciting and welsh cobs and lots and lots of riding. :D
 
Easter will be work filled but includes a trip to Morocco with the parents. Again with excitement. Go home for a little while to see brother, but not long. This is little brother who turned 20 yesterday... yikes!
 
Ronan album coming out on Monday! Have it all pre-ordered to be delivered I hope :). And getting very excited for new Dr Who. AND Much Ado, mostly thanks to the absolutely amazing photoshoot of David and Catherine. They both look stunning.
 
Job hunt is still going nowhere but hey ho. Just keep ploughing on...
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Long explanation of my life, probably quite boring, but never mind! Cut for length )
Wow, that kind of turned into an essay! Time at the moment is filled with uni work (or procrastinating), riding, conservation and far too much boyzone/ronan listening too. New boyzone album is amazing (and didn't make me cry!) and Ro's show this week was equally so (but did make me cry). Just looking forward to Easter, and having at least one week at home in which no work is too be done! 
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Considering I've done nothing all week i seem to have done quite alot. Not entirely sure how that happened.

Spent Saturday girly shopping with mum. Well, she did girl shopping, I did mosquito repellent and long sleeved shirt shopping, but we had grily lunch, so that counts right? As usual it was great fun (shopping on mums credit card is always fun!!) but by the time we got home we were kinda bored of each others company!

Sunday I cooked an AMAZING meal for the family. It was kinda 'Happy birthday (x2) and happy fathers day' meal as I'm never home for any of them. I did french onion soup which family seemed to like but I found too sweet. The most amazing pie you've ever seen for Lewis and Dad, I was fully expecting it all to go wrong and end up with a pile of mush on a plate, esp as I've never actually cooked pie before, but by some miricale it all worked! Me and mum had baked avacardo and posh salad, which was just as tasty but much easier. Then we had the worlds most chocolate-ist pudding, which was meant to be for 4 people, but we are still eating now...

Boyzone on Monday!

They were very good in an entertaining kind of way. Lots of dancing and big showy-ness. Fireworks and flying and dancers whose legs were far too long. They did a Queen medly which was very good but made Mum giggle hysterically just at the idea. Lots of costume changes which... they didn't really need. They could have just kept singing, really, it would have been fine in the same clothes. Ronan did 'Time after time' which was really good. Also while playing the guitar, which is apparently a new skill and ummmm... is limited to very few chords atm... but he gets points for learning! We got Mikey on guitar and Keith on drums at differant points too. They did quite a mix of songs, mainly just the singles, Stephen did some random song whose title and artist are escaping me right now... Stephen did also at one point lose and manage to bend his ear piece as he was meant to be doing a link, which for some reason led to breaking down into embarassed giggles and therefore let the rest of the boys bully him for the rest of the show.

I did have one small bones to pick though. They did a whole, quite long, section with the dancer dressed in revealing military uniforms holding rifles. Which would have pissed me off, but is very forgivable, but then they decided that it would be a good idea to sing 'when the going gets tough' while dancing with dancers and dressed in military uniform. So now we have comic relief song, plus guns in a very 'guns are fun' way, rather than a 'guns are bad' way. Which would have been excusable if they were teenagers and didn't know any better and at the mercy of their producers, but they have all faught for 'causes' and are grown ups now... so they sure as hell should know better. Kinda dissappointed me.
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Exam time!

But actually everything appears to be going pretty well. My exams are really nicely spread out, with one exam this friday then nothing till the 8th of june. This does mean that I am here for quite a while as people start to move off home, but hey, it gives me more revision time (most people finish this week, I've not even started)

Have been forcing routine on myself. And its working really well. Including setting my alarm for 8 am every morning for the past week and a half, which was creul to begin with (although I did used to get up at 7.15 every weekday morning, so I don't quite know what I'm complaining about!!) but actually quite nice to be up before everyone. And in bed by 10, laying down to sleep by 11, meaning 8am alarms are after 9 hours sleep, which is more than enough. Set myself revision timetable which helps me immencsely. I think becuase I can tick off when I've done the revision, so I can see what I've done, rather than just being time that doesn;t actually produce anything (other than good exam grades!) Am happy with the majority of my ecology stuff (the exam on friday) and have even managed to memorize some studies and examples, along with a few latin names!

It is a very lonely time to be at Uni though. Everything stops. No conservation tasks or socials, haven't even been out with firends as they are all busy studying. Which I am too, obivously, but as I am revising by 8.30 most days, I feel I can stop by about 7pm. If only everyone else worked on the same clock! Majority of flat have all there exams this week too, meaning its a stressful place to be, and for some reason prompting my neighbour to turn his music up louder than it has been all year, that I don't really understand, but hey. Do hwever have riding still! Yay! So thats some release at least.

Am considering doing friendly leagues next year too. I had a lesson with the beginners last week and was talking to one of the girls there. She has musculr dystrophy and previous to uni had ridden with the RDA. For about 10 years. And she has this thing that she can't do anything. She refuses to canter, even though she is perfectly cabable. We got her jumping last week and she didn't stop ravig about it on the way home, but spent the entire lesson saying it was never going to happen. And it kinda made me think I do the same thing. I can jump 2'6" I've done it before, and really ,worst case senerio, i fall off and feel like and idiot. They're the friendly leagues, nothing at stake, so why the hell not? Was also talking to the girl that now runs them (also called Michaela...) who had never jumped a horse before, and just gave it a go this year. At least I;ve done more than that!!

Lewis is filling in his application form for the fire service. Don't ask where that came from, we don't know either, but hey. Never can tell with lewis whether he'll get it or not. But he was having a bit of a mission filling in his form, as he doesn't do anything. I mean, marital arts for the past couple of years, but he never did Duke of Edinbrough, or volunteered, or mentored or any life experience thing. So he's stuck saying the same thing over and over, 'I was at school and...' 'I was doing martial arts and...' but if he gets to interveiw stage he'll prob go stright through it, he normally does!

Also spent today trying to get my TB test sorted. Its a mission, they don't seem to beleive me that I need one, keep telling me I;ve had my BCG so I don't have TB. I know I don't have TB, but I have to prove it! Grrrr.
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*breathes* Little bit manic few days...

Russlls funeral was yesturday. I wasn't going but Dad asked me too, espcially as he was carrying the coffin and speaking. And I am actually really pleased I went.

It was a bit stressful leading up to it. One of my Aunts is... more than a little over-powering and making a fuss about everything. Panicing about parking and moaning that it was organised for 3pm on a friday when the schools come out and it was forcast to rain (it didn't) The grave site was in the wrong place and why wasn't he being buried next to Grandad. Basically anything she could think of. So that didn't help.

When Dad was speaking to Russells wife she was saying we were expecting 300 - 400 people... to which our jaws kind of dropped. The church only sits just under 300 so speakers were being put outside. And we had police escorts for the parking. Becuase of all the confusion and the size of our family anyway, we went ahead to the church, left Dad outside and went in to sit. We had about 5 rows at the front for family, and we all fit in fine.

Then everyone else started to arrive and the church filled up. And then we put chairs out in the aisles, so there was literally just enough room for the coffin to be walked down and people squashed themselves at the back. There were about 400 people in this church, with the speakers still outside.

The service was really nice. Dad did a bit about growing up, although how he made it to the end I don't know. He barely looked like he could stand gripping onto the pulpit. And one of russell daughters did a bit too, and he had the Beatles and Carpenters playing. It was really lovely and personal.

Then we came to take the coffin down to the grave, so we walked out behind. Coming out of the church was incredible. You seriously could not move for people, there were people standing out on the road, in the carpark, and across the road at the pub garden too. It was so amazing.

So yeah. Although I can't say I knew my Uncle well, I was glad to be there, to support Dad and as part of such a big family. We sure as hell have our problems, but it was so nice to see everyone come together.
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My uncle died last week, I haven't really mentioned it because although I do remember him growing up, he used to own a pub with a big dog and a pig. (That is pretty much the extent of my memory) I haven't seen him in years and tbh don't actually feel that close to that side of the family. They're not fond of mum at all, not in a nasty way, but they make her, and by extension me and Lewis, feel kind of awkward. Just lots of pointed comments and looks.

As a result I didn't really feel that much when Mum said he'd died. He was ill for a long time, and had been told he was going to die many times, but always proved them  wrong. He does have 2 small children (about 10 and 12 actually), who are generally lovely when i've seen them, so it does break my heart slgihtly to think that they have lost there father. I didn't thinmk dad was that close to him. Dad is the youngest of 6, and I think Russel was 2nd, so there were 3 children between them. But at the same time they did have 4 sisters, so i suppose there must have been some connection between the 2 boys. dad did go and see him while he was ill, but went to work the day after he'd died. He's never that good at showing emotion so it is kind of hard to work out what he's feeling anyways.

But I've just got off the phone to Dad, originally to tell him that I wasn't going to the funeral, as I have a tutor that day. But he asked me to go with him. Now normally for this kind of thing me and lewis are given complete freedom to make our own descisions, neither parent will tell us what they think and force us to decide for ourselves. So the fact that although I'd said I wasn't going he asked me too must mean he is in need of more support than I'd realised. And it kind of frustrates me that I don't know how too. Although our family is very open, we talk to each other alot, there is also very much a feeling of, 'Get on with it'. Whatever happens we were always expected to go to school/work and get everything finished. Its OK to be sad or whatever, but you're not allowed to sit around and dwell. If you can do something about it, do it, if you can't, get on with life. While its certainly a lesson I learnt (Despite a small lapse into 'the world hates me', but I was a teenager!) it makes life diffucult to know what I can do for dad, other than be there.
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*yawns* I have the car today, so mum was meant to get a lift with Liz to work... Liz forgot to pick her up, Mum had to get me up to drive her in, Kayla is sleepy and not so productive!

Although I have packed for the fun that will be Spain... well, maybe. I'm not sure whether I'm looking forward to this trip or not. The work should be good, it is what I hope to do evntually, roughly. But it is arthropods, which are less fun, and it may well rain the whole time as is Spain at Easter. I don't know that many people on my course very well either, but hopefully I can get to know some, right? And group work never goes down well with me... But it gives me something to do, its rather boring at home alone this week!

This week at home has been very boring but quite productive, I've done a fair bit of revision prep, which is very good me thinks. And all my notes are up to date, which is also good. I did have my 'ugh I hate being home' bit for a few days but I'm getting used to this constantly changing thing, so its not so bad. Grandparents were here for a few days also. I love seeing them, but they are becoming very diffucult in their old age, which is a shame, becuase we used to be very close, but now they insist on talking down to everyone and arguing with anything you say so I don't feel like we're as close as we used to be.

Went to St Johns to be a causlty for the cadets this week too. It was very odd. Lewis had the car so dad had to drop me off and it was like I was 12 again! That and I can never understand why I can travel the world, but stick me back in that room with those people and I'm an awkward teenager again. Its really odd. But I like going back all the same, Chris still looks after me, I love chatting to Ellen and talking to everyone I haven't seen in a while. But I will always be an awkward teenager there, however successful I become anywhere else!

Riding lesson this afternoon, which should be good. I have changed alot there, grown up alot and more equal with Jenny now, which rocks muchly. That and my riding is improving so much which helps quite alot!!
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Back at Uni again. Trying to get up the motivation to get in the shower and go get breakfast but its not quite working. Plus I only have porridge and don't really fancy that this morning...

Had a good few days at home, although it wasn't that long ago I was there! Didn't really do much. At all really. Just hang round at home, chatted to people when they were in. Dads got to make 5 people redundant this week so was stressing majorly. Stressing more I think coz they wanted to make people redundant that they couldn't lose or they were trying to do it without asking him or something... I'm not entirely sure. But it meant stress anyhow. I think he wants to leave, they're run by americans nw and he doesn't get on with them at all. But he won't leave now coz he doesn't have a degree and had enough trouble finding a job last time, despite the experience, he'd have no hope now.

Lewis broke up with his girlfriend. I think they actually broke up around christmas time but she was stringing him along, just in case she changed her mind. I think it prob upset him but he wasn't letting on. And it actually means he's being more open with us and seing more of his friends as she hasn't ot him wrapped round her little finger. He got into Northampton uni to do art foundation course too. Not entirely sure how, his portfolio was empty and he was rushing it together the night before but he always seems too. I;ve decided he can come take my exams at the end of the year!

Mum is still always panicing that I won't ever want to come home. She takes me shopping and I point out that I don't need anything but all she wants to do is buy things for me. To do whatever i want to. Which is nice, I know why shes doing it. But its kinda frustrationg. I'll come home becuase they're my family and I love them and miss them, believe it or not. Not because I know when I go home Mum will buy me things. She just constantly says yes to me, but thats not what  Iwant from her. I have friends, enough of them, only got one mother. Having said that though she is getting better. I think she's just scared one day I'm going to go of travelling and not come back.

No idea what I'm going to do with myself for the next week. Semester 2 doesn't start till Monday. My timetable next semester is really empty. I think there are 3 days in the entire sememster when I have to stay till 6. Other than that I'm finished by 2 at the latest. Which is differant from last semester, when my lectures were stuck at either ends of the day and  ispent the middles sat in the library working. Just hve to see where  iwork best when i don't have to be in.
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*yawns* I shouldn't be tired yet! its right the begining of term.

Although, just got my timetable for exams... I have 2 weeks for all my exams. I have them all mon, tues, weds of the first week. I may go home again for the next week and a half, coz i will have nothing to do until the new semester starts! How frustrating!

Skiing was great fun. Although lewis spent the whole holiday sulking ocz he missed his girlfriend and only actually came out for 2 mornings. But me and mum had fun skiing! It snowed lots on new years eve and was then bright sunshine for the next 2 days will lovely fresh snow, which rocked. And I only fell over of my own accord once, and did it in the biggest pile of fresh snow so it was like falling on a big cushion. I also got taken out by another skier but someone how didn't get hurt, which is always good! 

Back in Southampton now. I do like being home but independance is nice too! And I have torchwood! Woot! Lectures start tomorrow, but I've only got one full week, then one kinda half week, before exams and more time off! 
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Home! Have been for a week and its really really strange! I don't know, I think I'm kinda in that weird gap where I'm almost just visiting, but I still kinda live here. I don't really know. Lewis was a little bit sulky when i first got back but I think he's used to me now. Its just odd remembering to fit round other people. And having to justify my day to other people. Coz at uni, although people do ask how your day was, you can pretty much say however much you feel like shraing, where as it feels like the spainish inquistion here! Not that thats nessecarily a bad thing, just differnat. And they throw away so much food! Which I'm sure we must always have done, but I just notice it now. And i had to clean out the fridge coz it had gone moldy, which I'm sure isn't meant to happen.

Dad I think still treats me like his little girl. Which is nice sometimes. But I am actually a grown up! Mum likes to quiz me on everything, then latches on to the completely wrong thing. i think she's hoping I'll find a nice guy at uni, everytime I so much as mention a male name she wants where they live, where they're from, what they study, what they had for breakfast a week last thursday...


Had a really good riding lesson. Again, I always seem to when I'm home. I kinda wish my parents would come and watch me actually, as they haven't seen me ride in years and think I've improved a far bit! But then if they did I'd be so paniced everything would go wrong so maybe not hey!

Think i might book my summer trip. I don't have a clue if i can afford it ... actually I can pretty much garentee I can't... but thats so not the point! Well... I probably can. If i get a job. If i don't i should still be able to go away but maybe not for quite as long.

Oh oh oh Dr who! OK, is terraforming a real word? Coz I thought it was a Whedonism so did.. RTD? I don't even know what his name is but i think those are his initials... steal it or did joss steal it from someone in the first place or is it a word and if it is why? I may have now changed my mind on the merlin = pretty front coz the actor did look vv nice in Dr Who. David sounds funny with a scottish accent, but is very pretty also. I'm not such a big fan of Donna but she is now growing towards bearable, but liking Martha much better thank you. River Song = ooooo, interesting! Ummmmm, I feel like there was more but I've forgotten. Am I nearly done. Oh Rose! Don't tell me coz I only just saw 'look who's talking' but ooooooo, *gets a little bit excited* does that mean I'm actually nearly there? Just in time for the xmas ep? Coz then i shall be a little impressed! oh, AND I wrote an essay just after finishing watching dr who and wth my head still talking dr speak and my essay came out quite good, but a little bit strange...


(ETA, I did some wikipediaing and appeantly terraforming was 1st used by a science fiction writer whose name i forgot BUT is actually a real word and theoretically possible and there are lots of strange people who think this would be a good idea! *backs away slowly*)


Oh, Birthday. Yes... that was fun... there were prestns and dinner and all was good.

Nearly christmas!!
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*dances round in cirlces* Its nearly Christmas! I know I normally won't mention it this early but I'm espcially excite this year. I thibk it may be because I didn't really get one last year, but its exciting! And I get to go home, which is also exciting. Just so I can wander round in my PJ's, lay around doing nothing, randomally go sit chatting to parents or brother. I think becuase i do everything in one room I have trouble seperating work and everything else, so it feels like you have to be protuctive all the time. At home I can be as un-productive a i like!

Going to winchester tomorrow for xmas dinner with conservation people, which should be good. Yum.

Mum also makes me laugh. She called me yeaturday when the boys were out, claiming it was becuase she'd just got my railcard in the post. Now I'm going home in a week, so shes not going to post it too me. I wasn't espcially waiting for it, hadn't asked her about it. I didn't nee to do anything about it. It really could have waite till she called today to tell me. But she wanted a chat so needed an excuse to call me. I did point out a chat was good enough excuse. Bless her. Then spoke to her again today coz obivously the boys had to talk to me. Bless

Kayla
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*breathes* Its ok, panic over. Its fininshed and sent and all is good. I brought chocolate.

Parents coming down this weekend. I'mquite looking forward to it. They're taking me out ot dinner and shopping i think, which sounds good to me. Mum promised to buy me a hot water bottle coz everytime she speaks to me I'm complaining I'm cold! (Which i am atm btw) But it does mean i need to tidy my desk and clean the bathroom this afternoon.

Should also really do some revision, as I have an exam on Tuesday! The concepts aren't hard but its characteristics of all the inveretbrate phyla so theirs lots of names to remeber that are all far to simular to each other and have no resemblene to any human words. Which does prove a little more diffucult.

Kayla
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Brrrr. I wish they wouldn't put our heating on a timer its bloody cold!

Had my PTA re-qual today. Didn't pass, but didn't really fail either. I'd just forgotten that procedures change with counties, so the forms you have to do in buckinghamshire are differant in hampshire. So if i had taken my written paper in bucks i would have been fine. I didn't. But hey, never mind, I'll just do it again in a few weeks! And feel a little bit dumb for forgetting in the mean time!

Guess who got 95% in her first practical! Little bit pleased with myself. Just have to keep it up, but as i didn't really understand that practical and i have understood all my others, all should be good! And our marwell key is nearly done, which is good. Bit of tweaking tomorrow and all should be good. The resps practical seems to have some quite glaringly obivous errors in the methiod. Namely that you can't take resps from someone who knows thats what your doing, because then you become consious of your breathing and don't breathe normally. So who knows what our results for that will look like! But the write up seems easy enough.

Parents coming down next weekend, which will be nice. Mum said they will only give me a lift to asda if i let them pay,
which has led to me getting overexcited! If they want to buy my weeks shopping, who am i to say no!!!!!!!

Kayla

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